Sunday, December 12, 2010
Well, I've come to find out that pausing for a little while and going with it can turn into a good thing. The more I've gotten to know him, the more I feel like I understand where he's coming from - I see different motivations behind his actions (than I would have presumed before), which are positive. Now - why he is still dating me is harder to figure out; maybe I've done too good of a job of hiding my flaws. I'm grateful for the chance to develop a friendship and learn about someone very different - in some ways - than me.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Then, on Saturday, I got to spend time with some of my family, which was great, and then I got to go to a dinner-theater with the boy, which was so much fun - even though I had a little panic attack in the middle! Happy December!
P.S. I almost left work on Thursday, but I took it a little at a time and eventually started to calm down and was able to make it through the day. One of my students (who didn't know what was going on, except that I was sick and stressed), was so sweet and told me that she was proud of me - or something like that - for sticking it out. Precious!
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Monday, November 8, 2010
Totally unrelated, but oh-so-important - Happy Birthday, Katy!! I hope it's been a blast!
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Still, I think this election is a step in the right direction, and I feel hope for America. I believe that my confidence in its people is higher than it was before. I just hope we can keep our momentum because there's still a lot that needs to be done, and its going to take longer than the next couple of years.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
My love language is touch, I think, so then I thought about that and how I love touch. I feel the most loved/validated/cared for when I am touched. It means that somebody actually cares about me enough to be close. I also love how different things feel - like rose petals.
Sight is another great sense. There's nothing like a beautiful sunset or lightning storm or tree-filled valley/mountainside or changing fall colors or a peaceful ocean. I love being able to see those things.
Sound it totally important to me. Just this weekend I played a song that is really beautiful to me on the piano. Music can be totally inspiring, and when I hear something full of beauty, it's not uncommon for me to cry.
Taste is the one that I maybe appreciate the least - and yet, there's nothing like biting into a rare, juicy steak, is there? Or a truffle? Cheesecake? Okay, so I like this one, too.
I'm so glad that God has blessed us with these senses that make life so much richer.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
After that, we went to my sister's place and visited with her and her husband for a little bit. Then we all went to my other sister's place, where I got to see that sister and her husband briefly (they had a date that night). And I got to see my niece! Besides the two that left, the rest of us went and picked up pizza and fruit and went to the park. My niece was mostly interested in the strawberries. After dinner, we let her slide and swing, and then we went back to her place, and Boy and I drove home and read another couple of chapters of the book. What a terrific weekend! Now I have to deal with AIMS this week - uggh!
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Then came the more planned part to my birthday - a cruise! A roommate suggested it several months back, we planned it, and four of us girls took off a week ago Saturday. We spent a couple of nights at my uncle's. He dropped us off at the Long Beach Pier on Monday, and after slowly making our way through the security line, we finally made it on the boat. We spent the week sleeping a lot (glorious!), eating a lot, dancing, watching the ocean, and just relaxing. We walked around Catalina Island, which was beautiful. We went to La Bufadora in Ensenada, Mexico, and spent money at the flea market. It was great! My aunt picked us up on Friday. Then we made our way to San Diego and Balboa Park, which is one of my most favorite places on earth. We spent the night with my parents and came back home on Saturday. It was a terrific week, and now it's back to reality - what a great opportunity to relax and celebrate, eh?
Sunday, October 10, 2010
This evening I was talking to him on the phone, and something comes up about him not being able to invite girls over or something, and so I replied something like, "Why not? We're not dating." To which he replies that he thinks we are, or something. What?? So we had a fun conversation about how he's not dating anybody else, and he tells people we're dating. I don't know how I was supposed to get that out of what he had said before, but oh well. I know now. Communicating with boys - good times.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
It's just great knowing that we have a prophet today who receives revelation from God. It's great knowing that God does not change. We can trust Him, as Elder Eyring discussed today. He is not who we create Him to be, rather He created us, and when we follow His plan for us we are blessed.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Also, I stayed with my baby sister and her husband Friday night and Saturday. It was fun to visit them. I was planning on seeing a girl who was coming down from Montreal. I thought I would spend the night at my sister's, go hang out with my other sister and my niece the next morning, see this girl from my mission, and then go home. Unfortunately, the girl never called me, and I didn't have her number. I didn't want to leave in case she did call, so I imposed on my family all day. They definitely win the hospitality award. They were nice and laid back, even though they weren't planning on having a visitor all day. Thanks, guys!
Monday, September 6, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Anyhow, the real reason for the post is to ask, Why does it hurt to not be in to somebody? There's this guy who I have mentioned on here recently that I just am not interested in dating seriously, and yet it hurts whenever I am reminded of that. Maybe it's because people keep bugging me to try. "Give it time," my roommate says, but I really feel I already know. We're going out soon, and it hurt after he asked me. I just talked to him, and it hurt coming home after. Maybe the aching really comes from wanting something but knowing it's still not to be. I want to follow another roommate's advice and just let us be friends and see if anything comes later (which I think I know it won't), but this guy actually does things right, I believe, in that he treats me like a girl. Instead of the too casual buddy/buddy thing that my generation does, we actually treat each other with that deference one should give to a potential partner. All part of that awkward dating process that I would so like to get beyond.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
What I will be (and obviously already am ) feeling is a little frustrated. How do people ever decide that they actually like each other? I hope the boys keep coming, though (Believe me, I'm very surprised and grateful for that part - totally unaccustomed to it.), and that it actually works one of these times.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
- Uncle Bucks - a restaurant we found near our actual destination. I didn't want to eat at a national chain, so we found this place, and it lived up to its name. The people there were "real, live Southerners," which was too exciting to me. I heard accents, I saw a man kiss a woman's hand, I ate corn fritters.
- Luray Caverns - it's this really cool place that is full of stalactites and stalagmites. One of the cool things about it is an organ that uses the formations for the sounds.
- Next to the caverns is a car museum. Our fee for the caverns included the museum, so we walked around it. It seemed like a random thing to be next to the caverns, but it had some pretty sweet old cars.
- Skyline Drive - beautiful drive through part of the Shenandoah National Park, I think.
- Margherita pizza for dinner - delicious!
- D.C. Temple - Sadly, when we got there, we realized it was closed. The visitor's center was open, though, so we went in and walked through a beautiful exhibit they have right now of bronze sculptures depicting scenes of the Savior and His mortal ministry.
- Mt. Vernon - I was so excited to go there, and it was great! We first watched a little orientation video for Mt. Vernon (hosted by Pat Sajak, no less), as well as a short video about Pres. Washington. The video made me even more excited about being there because I was reminded about what a statesman he was. The grounds were totally beautiful - I can see why Pres. Washington loved his home so much.
There were many things that I didn't get to see. Hopefully I can return sometime, so I can visit more places. I agree with my friend that fall would be a good time.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
- Library of Congress - The Great Hall is beautiful. The architecture is Neo-classical, I believe, and the inscriptions on the walls about learning, books, and God are wonderful. A Gutenberg Bible was there, amongst many other very cool things.
- Good Stuff Eatery - Local, greasy burger and fry joint. Yummy!
- We saw the Supreme Court building, as well as the Capital Building. We actually tried to go into the Capital, but water bottles are not allowed, and as we had nice, non-disposable ones, we left.
- The National Archives - Amazing!! I got to see the Magna Carta (started to tear up), the Declaration of Independence, Constitution, and Bill of Rights. The Declaration is so faded, one can hardly see any of the writing, but it was still awesome to see that original document. I was really touched by a man who was behind us in line that I overheard explaining the value of some of those documents - invaluable.
- National Museum of Art - This is my favorite museum that I visited. It had a French painters exhibit, where I saw many pieces of art in person that I have seen pictures of - Van Gogh, Monet, Rembrandt, David, etc.
- Museum of Natural History and Museum of American History - Hope Diamond, Dorothy's ruby slippers, Kermit, etc.
- Chinatown - We just went to dinner there. The part I saw wasn't very impressive.
- We dealt with a couple of hiccups - I guess after seeing so much the day before we had to make a payment for it in the form of broken water heater and car.
- Arlington National Cemetery - I really like cemeteries, and I wish we had more time for this special one. We only had time to walk to the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier, where we watched the changing of the guard. Then we had to book it back to the metro. The rows of graves are impressive. I was also glad for the reverence given by the spectators during the changing of the guard, which kind of took awhile. It was a very formal, deliberate event.
- Holocaust Museum - One picks up an I.D. card before starting the tour. The card contains the story of one actual person who lived during the Holocaust. You turn the page at specific times during the three floors of the tour. I didn't get too involved during the first floor of the tour, but it got to me during the second, and I certainly shed some tears, which seem to be coming back now. I didn't even read everything or look at or watch everything I could have. It's just awful to think about what happened. And it's not like it doesn't happen today - there's definitely still genocide today. The last floor has stories about many people who helped hide people during the Holocaust, and that was wonderful to learn about. There were many people who helped, which is heartening.
- The National Portrait Gallery - Very cool! It has portrait paintings of important people in American history (and not-so-important, as well. The biggest painting we saw was of LL Cool J - what??).
- Dinner at Clyde's, which is in or near Chinatown (although it wasn't Chinese food) - Yummy!
- Washington Monument - Too bad we didn't think ahead about getting tickets to go to the top. It was still awesome to see!
- World War II Memorial - I don't know if I was aware of this memorial. It is really beautiful with pillars (each has the name of a different state on it) bordering a pool of water with fountains in it.
- Lincoln Memorial - I kept thinking about Mr. Smith Goes to Washington. Mr. Smith is very reverent about seeing Lincoln. I wish the people there would have been quiet - I think that would have made the experience even better, but the memorial is very impressive. It was very important for me to see it, and I'm so glad I did.
- Church, End of World Cup (yea Spain!), dinner, and Just Dance. I don't think I have heard of Just Dance before. It's a Wii dance game - I might have to look into purchasing that sometime.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
13 And it came to pass that I beheld the Spirit of God, that it wrought upon other Gentiles; and they went forth out of captivity, upon the many waters.
14 And it came to pass that I beheld many multitudes of the Gentiles upon the land of promise . . .
15 And I beheld the Spirit of the Lord, that it was upon the Gentiles, and they did prosper and obtain the land for their inheritance . . .
16 And it came to pass that I, Nephi, beheld that the Gentiles who had gone forth out of captivity did humble themselves before the Lord; and the power of the Lord was with them.
17 And I beheld that their mother Gentiles were gathered together upon the waters, and upon the land also, to battle against them.
18 And I beheld that the power of God was with them, and also that the wrath of God was upon all those that were gathered together against them to battle.
19 And I, Nephi, beheld that the Gentiles that had gone out of captivity were delivered by the power of God out of the hands of all other nations. (1 Nephi 13)
I love these verses, written by a man who lived in the Americas 600 years B.C., close to 2000 years before Columbus was inspired to come to the Americas, and a few hundred more before the pilgrims came. I love the United States of America - I love the principles it was founded upon. I love those who fought for independence, and I love the Founding Fathers for all that they did, like writing the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution.
Today we live in a time of apology for who we are and what we mean, which is absurd to me. Those who came before us tried a new and exciting - an inspired and well-thought-out and debated - experiment. It was an experiment that succeeded and brought hope to other people throughout the world. It gave a Dream to the world - a dream that I'm so grateful to be a part of. All of the success comes from the Lord and is really a part of His work. Our danger today is in forgetting - forgetting Him and forgetting what history teaches us; that this experiment really works. It works better than any other imperfect system I know of. God bless America, and may we put in the effort that we each need to in order to preserve this great experiment.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
At the beginning of the evening, Boy requested that I close my eyes a couple of times so that I had to rely on him and couldn't try to be in charge. He was really good about trying to explain things to me; sometimes he audibly counted, I think to try to help me stay on, and it really did help. I wish I had more natural talent at picking up the steps, but I guess I just need to practice a lot more and maybe I will improve? Besides my klutziness, I also got kind of dizzy - dang motion sickness! I didn't want to tell Boy that I was feeling a little sick, so I just tried to press on. After a couple of hours when he checked the clock and asked if I wanted to leave soon, I was so ready. I just ran out of steam, which is weird to me because if I'm at a normal-by-today's-standards dance, I can go, go, go. I think I can do the same when I salsa. Maybe having someone to dance with me the whole time, combined with my lack of experience/know-how, which means that I had to exert myself not only physically, but mentally, too, added into a tiring experience.
However, like I said before, I had a blast and would love to say to the Boy, "Well, Friend, when are we going again?" I suppose I should let my feet forgive me first.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
I would label these people as well-educated, intellectual type people. I like to think of myself as one of those people (conceited, I know). Some people like to think and talk about "smart" things and be smart - and I don't mean it's in an in-your-face sort of way. It just has to do with things that people are interested in. I went through a period in college where I dabbled in not being smart. I had fun not talking about smart things - not thinking politically or sociologically, etc. My grades from that year and a half would prove my change in interests. When I went back to school after my mission, though, and decided to try to get good enough grades to be able to get into a masters program, I realized that I really did like learning - I'm a nerd! Then I graduated, moved, and ended up living with someone who helped spark that interest in thinking about things.
Back to this group of folks, though. As much as some people want to not think they're part of a clique, we all have the desire to be accepted by others, and we tend to gravitate to those who have similar interests. Thus, my friend has been moving into this circle that is probably full of really cool - to her - people because they're of a more intellectual, academic bend, and she values that. And although I also value intelligence, I think I stay kind of aloof from it because I don't want to totally throw myself into that. There's some kind of warmth lacking from some of these people - although they're friendly to talk to and not purposefully snotty or anything.
On to the second part of the post's title. In writing this, I am a total hypocrite. I also am thinking about that. In fact, last night I told my roommate that I was having an Emma evening. In case you haven't read or seen it (or seen Clueless), it's about a rich, upper-class woman who decides to take a lower-class woman under her wing. The lower-class girl is like her little good-will project. I won't continue on with the details, but although I'm not rich, I think I feel like the better-educated, more socially acceptable Emma trying to "help" another. Isn't that awful?! Sorry to expose you to some of my ugly hypocrisy, but it's true. I feel like every Christian should know better than to put one's self above - or below - another because we are all God's children and therefore brothers and sisters, and yet we do it. I guess it's one of those natural tendencies that we have to fight. I don't know how to tie my thoughts together tonight, but to me, they're connected.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
And can I just say that gentlemen are appreciated? He complimented me, he opened the car door for me; it was nice. I hope I was a lady, although I feel less clear on what that means than I do on what it means to be a gentleman. Chivalry dictates all kinds of specifics for guys, but what does being a lady entail? Just smiling and saying thank you when they take care of you? At any rate, it was a pleasant evening and a great way to end the week.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
dis·il·lu·sion /ˌdɪsɪˈluʒən/ Show Spelled[dis-i-loo-zhuhn] Show IPA
–verb (used with object)
1.to free from or deprive of illusion, belief, idealism, etc.; disenchant.
2.a freeing or a being freed from illusion or conviction; disenchantment.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
If you like politics, you may like checking it out, especially when I get some cool people contributing to it - I have a few such people who have agreed to help. If you go to it and have any comments/suggestions, please make them. Thanks!
reading a good book with a friend.
going to sleep on time (which I'm not, but it would be a happy thing if it did happen).
Monday, April 12, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
On a different note, I have started a new blog. I only just began and don't have anything other than the initial post up, so I will wait to give you the address until I have more. It is going to be political in nature, meaning that there will probably be a lot of venting on it. I am hoping to get some other people to contribute to it, so when I get the address put on here, I hope you will check it out to see if it will be of interest to you.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
You know, I have the hardest time uploading videos - I think they're just too big. This was supposed to be a video of my niece that I think I took a week ago. Oh well . . . Okay, so I just uploaded it into YouTube. I don't think anyone else can see if but you people, so hopefully I won't get in trouble for uploading it there. If you want to finish reading my post, finish before you click on the following link because it will take you to YouTube. Or, hit the back button after you finish. Here it is.
Other than that, the garden fortifications have been breached, not only by little ground squirrels, but one of my roommates has seen bunnies, as well. One of my roommates was planning on pulling a Bunny Foo Foo - with a shovel - if she caught them, only now she's talking about more humane ways to try to get rid of them. I just think we need a cat.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
"11:42 PM ET: As Republican consultant Kevin Madden just said on CNN, whatever you think of the bill you have to admit that this is a historic moment. Certainly the most dramatic change to the American health care system since the 1960s. Maybe the biggest change to the federal government's relationship to its citizens since the creation of Social Security in 1935. And all that in a very polarized political atmosphere during an economic crisis. Pretty incredible."
- You can find the above quotes, plus more updates by Andrew Golis, Editor of Yahoo! News blog here.
In reaction to the 11:42 entry - it certainly is historic, and how do you feel about Social Security? Have the gains been greater than the losses? We've just given more power to the government, which I feel extremely sad about. Take my already crappy mood that began with my sleeping way too long this afternoon, and go and make it worse. Thank you Congress, for destroying the American ideal even more.
I feel like I am watching the destruction - piece by piece - of something very unique, beautiful, noble, and inspired. And it is being done at the hands of the very people it has blessed. The children of America and the Constitution are now teenagers who think we know better than them how to prosper. We think we are smarter, better educated, better suited to run things, to be in charge. But what will happen as we age and realize that our parents know best? Will the prodigals be able to return, or will it be too hard to find them?
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I think that our generation has been so blessed in having our own needs met (and even a lot of wants) that we selfishly don't think we need to worry about anything. And then there are people in dire need in places like Haiti. It makes me so mad at us. We have so much, even during these hard economic times. A lot of people in the world would probably much rather be in our "hard" times than in their current situations. If we don't take an interest in our government, how are we going to feel if things go south? And maybe it won't affect us too much. Maybe we won't have to reap the rewards of our apathy, but I kind of think somebody will - like maybe our children, or theirs. Why are we okay with doing that to them, especially when there have been many generations of people before us, working so that we could have this abundance that we enjoy?
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
A) I think that it is good to address the religious beliefs of the Founding Fathers when teaching about them. What they believed affected the founding of our country. There's nothing wrong with bringing that up.
B) I really have a beef with revisionist historians, who I feel are too quick to apply (unconsciously, I would hope) presentism to their revision. Christopher Columbus was not the devil. I really get upset with today's views that he was a horrible man. He wasn't. I'm sure he wasn't perfect, but he wasn't trying to destroy the world when he left Spain, nor was he trying to destroy the world when he discovered America. And I feel fine in saying "discovered." Sure, other people also found it, but his arrival influenced a heck of a lot of European history to come. Some may argue that I'm just a pompous W.A.S.P., but I don't think there's anything wrong with being a W.A.S.P. They've accomplished quite a lot in the past 250 years. Not only that, but given my religious background, I can claim mistreatment, misunderstanding, displacement, etc., etc. And although those things are a part of my religious history, they don't keep me from celebrating this country or its people.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
1) I don't regularly watch t.v.
2) These shows are on late.
3) They're usually a bit racy.
That being said, I have enjoyed many clips that I have seen. My dad used to watch Johnny Carson. I don't think I really watched Jay Leno, but I know a lot of people did. I did spend a summer watching The Late Night Show with Conan, and I kind of liked it. I think it's great that he moved to the earlier show, too, and I loved his driver's license commentary early in his new, California life - I would link to the clip, but I didn't see it on YouTube. Anyway, I found an article talking about how NBC is placing Leno's show later, which would push The Tonight Show to a later time slot. Conan won't do it, and I kind of like what he has to say. I think it's cool that in addition to how he feels about moving The Tonight Show to a different time, he doesn't want to push Jimmy Fallon and The Late Night Show to a later time - I wouldn't have a problem with that because, let's face it, Jimmy Fallon does not seem meant to host that type of show. Noble of Conan to not push him, though, when that very thing is happening to him. And I agree with him that NBC hasn't given him enough time.
I probably wouldn't even be commenting on this - I'm very much not a regular watcher, but I like Conan's statement, and I wanted to share it.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
I survived? I'm not sure if the reflections on this past year will be very good because I don't think I can recall too much. I made Chinese dumplings. I made pies for the first time in my life. I moved without having a nervous break-down. I actually took my S.E.I. courses for work. I flew by myself twice without freaking out about it. I realized that I am over a grudge that I didn't want, but couldn't quite let go of before - the Atonement is great! Most important, I think, I have started forming a better habit with saying my prayers at night.
2. What is there to grieve about 2008?(What was disappointing? What was scary? What was hard? What can you forgive yourself for?)
I didn't finish Nanowrimo or Nablopomo. I didn't post for over a month. I didn't stay caught up with grading. I wasn't as social as I should have been. I think the worst thing about me this past year is that I was casual in my worship of God and in my relationship with Jesus Christ. I will try to forgive myself for not being perfect. One of my friends actually talked to me about how I feel about myself, and I think he was right and that I need to allow myself to be imperfect while I am trying to be better.
3. What else do you need to say about the year to declare it complete?
To declare 2009 complete, I think I need to say that I feel like the Lord has really blessed me with better mental health this past year. I am SO GRATEFUL for that! It has been so wonderful to feel much better - not perfect, of course. I have just felt so much healthier. To declare this year complete, I also need to mention the wonderful experiences I have had with my family this year. I have seen my parents a little more, I think, which has been great. I have spent more time with my siblings this year, too, and have really enjoyed that. And Emilee came - she is the joy in most of our lives right now. She was born almost one year ago and has been a source of wonder and light and beauty! She has made my life more meaningful and complete.
2010 is my year of balance, I hope, as I try to tackle goals a few at a time all year long.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
P.S. Happy Birthday, Brother-in-law!