Sunday, December 12, 2010

So You're Saying I Have a Chance

Isn't it amazing what you can learn when you give people a chance? This weekend one of my friends asked me a little about the relationship I'm in right now. I explained to her that I wasn't so interested in Boy at the beginning, which made it easy to ask him out because I wasn't risking too much hurt if he rejected me. Then, as he started asking me out a little, there were things that I just thought I couldn't handle.

Well, I've come to find out that pausing for a little while and going with it can turn into a good thing. The more I've gotten to know him, the more I feel like I understand where he's coming from - I see different motivations behind his actions (than I would have presumed before), which are positive. Now - why he is still dating me is harder to figure out; maybe I've done too good of a job of hiding my flaws. I'm grateful for the chance to develop a friendship and learn about someone very different - in some ways - than me.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

I Know it's Late, but . . .

I didn't post last week, so I wanted to write something quickly tonight. What a roller-coaster of a week this has been. I kind of had a melt-down on Thursday. It was very scary for me - the worst I've felt in the past 2 or so years, I think. I know a lot of prayers were said for me that day, for which I am so grateful because prayer is real, and Heavenly Father answers prayers. Anyhow, even with the downs (and, thankfully, I have been up more than down), I got to go to a semi-formal with the boy on Friday night [so I bought this dress for the occasion. I'm feeling self-conscious when I walk out to greet the boy, and his first comment was a dismayed "I thought it was a brighter blue" or something like that. "Do you want me to change?" I showed him a different outfit I could wear. Eventually he says - now in an exasperated tone because I don't think he really cared what I wore, "Look, I think you look beautiful, so -" "Oh, alright. Let's go!" If he had only known that was all I needed to hear at the beginning, we could have been out the door much sooner. :) ].
Then, on Saturday, I got to spend time with some of my family, which was great, and then I got to go to a dinner-theater with the boy, which was so much fun - even though I had a little panic attack in the middle! Happy December!
P.S. I almost left work on Thursday, but I took it a little at a time and eventually started to calm down and was able to make it through the day. One of my students (who didn't know what was going on, except that I was sick and stressed), was so sweet and told me that she was proud of me - or something like that - for sticking it out. Precious!