I just finished watching The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. I'm planning on seeing Prince Caspian tomorrow (I know I've already seen it once, but I didn't pay for it the first time, so I figure it's okay for me to see it again), and I thought it would be nice to see the first movie first. It's been a long time since I've seen it, and watching it again, I was struck by the gospel messages in it. I was already feeling like quite the sinner, after saying some things to some friends tonight that I should not have said. The movie only rubbed in my failings more - in a good way, I hope.
C. S. Lewis had such an amazing understanding of Heavenly Father's plan for us. His story does such a good job of teaching the Savior and His atonement. I'm struck when I see Edmund talking to Aslan; then Aslan tells the others that what is done is done and they don't need to discuss it more. I get emotional when Aslan stands in Edmund's place as a blood sacrifice. At the end of the movie, I wondered why the children are made kings and queens when it is Aslan who is the ultimate hero and saviour. Then I remembered that it is the same for each of us. The Savior has done everything for us, including standing in for us and paying for our mistakes/sins. He is greater than all of us, yet He wants us to be kings and queens. He wants us to have all that He has.
And I am so imperfect. And even when I feel bad about things, like saying things I shouldn't, I realize that perhaps I feel bad, mostly, because I don't want others to know how imperfect I am, when I should really feel bad because I only want to serve God and I love my brothers and sisters and want to help them. I know that becoming like Christ is a longer than this life task, yet I get so impatient with myself because I know I can be better than I am. I guess it's just one step at a time. And while I wait to become who I need to be, I am so grateful for the Saviour, who loves me (and you, too) enough to pay for my failings, deliver me from the adversary, and help me move forward.